Womb Bloom - страница 18

Inside the sphere clearly imagine the event which you would like to see in reality. Here it has already come about and you are now observing it, painting in each and every detail in colour. In my case, I would visualize the baby that I had already given birth to. I would draw her facial features, hair colour and imagine what kind of character she would have.

Then, the most important thing is to let the sphere go. Don’t hold on tightly to it and nervously wait for the event to come true in your lives because this way you block the energy of intent by not letting it flow freely. It’s like cutting the umbilical cord or letting a balloon fly into the sky. First you hold it by a string feeling the movement of air. And when the right wave comes you loosen your grip, letting the balloon fly away. It disappears into the clouds, borne up and away by the Wind of intent…

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Remembering what my mentors had taught me, I allowed myself to feel woman in her essence, that is, to be relaxed. We decided to go to Egypt for a month. Egypt had been calling me for a long time; flitting images from past lives gave me the feeling that that my roots were there. Jonny felt the same pull from that country. We, along with everyone else going through Russia’s December winter, wanted to warm ourselves and fill ourselves with the Sun’s energy.

On 21^>st December the desired conception took place. While everyone in Russia was apparently hoping to be saved from the 2012 apocalypse, we lay on the beach looking at the diamond-studded night sky and it seemed to me that countless stars were going to fall any second now, as if someone was about to tear off all the rhinestones from the galaxy’s black cape.

I felt something happening inside me…

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Millions of sperm compete with one another in a race to the coveted egg like cars on the racetrack. Only a few dozen will reach the end point, and only one will penetrate the egg…the strongest and bravest of them all. It’s a struggle for survival. A colossal amount of life energy is emitted at that moment! The quintessence of life! That’s why during natural conception a million times more energy is put into creating a new life then during artificial insemination, which has become popular these days.

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For conception to take place a woman must trust her chosen one on a deep level; her egg cell must confide in him to let the sperm cell into her palace. Surrounded by a protective layer, the egg must open up, and finally give in to allow the winner to penetrate her inner chambers.

I was once with a man who dreamed of getting me pregnant but I knew that it wouldn’t happen with him because deep inside myself I didn’t want to. I didn’t trust him and therefore my female centre was closed off from him. No matter how hard he tried, nothing happened.

Woman’s gift

On an intuitive level every woman feels that she has something inside herself, somewhere in the centre of her womb, a type of gift which mustn’t be used just anyhow but which needs to be protected, stored and strengthened for a feat – for the right moment in her life. And that right moment is to give life to a new being and create a spiritual revolution.

My mentors would tell me this about choosing a man who would be the future father of my child: “Sometimes it pays to be patient and wait as long as it takes to find a real diamond in the mountains instead of picking up the stones that you meet on your way.”