Womb Bloom - страница 20

We made our way into the centre of the night’s eye. Nothing but rocks around us and a serpentine path as we went up, up and up. Some people didn’t hold out to the end and stopped to rest in small Bedouin huts. Others were short of breath, had headaches and could feel their blood pressure rising. This powerful place cleansed everyone who was in need of it. The local camels moved in a very relaxed manner as if they were floating on air and felt no strain from the ascent or loads on their backs.

With each metre the air became colder and the wind stronger. About half-way into our climb Jonny went a bit further ahead and I was left alone with the Wind. It felt as if it had been tracking me for a long time and had finally chosen this moment to reveal itself. My old lover had come back, as they sometimes do to get nourishment from us, test our resilience and see to what extent we’ve freed ourselves from them. And if we give in they take our female power.

The Wind wanted me to show it my vitality. It roared so strongly that I felt that I would fall off the mountain edge any second. I noticed that the energy of primal fear had awakened from deep inside my belly. And there, a metre away from me, a huge boulder caught my eye with a small hollow of safety in its centre. I squeezed myself into it with such force that I almost managed to get my whole body inside it. At that moment the stone seemed like plasticine to me, which I could use as a duvet to cover myself with. I pressed my whole body into it so as not to be carried away by the Wind.

Before this I had thought that I was tired from the long ascent, but nothing could be further from the truth; we have so many resources hidden inside ourselves which we are not even aware of until we are faced with a situation like this. The Replege movements which I was taught by my mentors came to the ancients this way i.e. when they clearly felt their vitality and began to move in a specific manner. This is why the exercises activate our inner potential and make us feel the intensity of life.

Jonny felt that I had got stuck somewhere and hurried back. Seeing me at the edge of the cliff he stretched out his hand and said “Don’t be afraid, just hold on to me.” I did as he said and was saved. The Wind disappeared straight away, as if it had never been there in the first place. We moved on.

I didn’t see anything apart from rocks, which we had to walk on carefully so as not to stumble on them. Jonny saw two shooting stars and shouted to me to look up and make a wish. We both made the same wish – for us to have children together. I felt that the stars were souls coming down from the cosmos. Newcomers, new guests in our world…

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Each stone emanated its own hue: red, yellow, blue, purple. I felt like a lynx pouncing from one stone to the other. There was lightness and gracefulness to my movements. The stones I needed to step on pulled my feet towards them. That’s how I covered ground.

Just before morning we reached the summit. The group had almost but dispersed. Some people had stayed overnight in the little huts. For Jonny and me the ascent was a colossal cleanse from past ties and the summit was the apogee – transformation, the start of a new life, a strengthened union, swearing oaths of love. True love which only happens once in a lifetime. Everything that had come before was searching, sport, interests… One can make up a lot of names, but when true love comes nothing can compare to it and everything fades away in its light.