Womb Bloom - страница 21

I had almost stopped believing in its existence. I was tired of the search for partners and the repetitive process of building a relationship and then breaking it up. How painful and energy-consuming it was to invest in a person and then break everything that had taken such effort to build. To break up without looking back. I was so tired of it that I had almost accepted to be a wild wolf in the wild forest of creation…

What we had made this night journey over the rocks for had begun to show itself – the sun was rising. I witnessed red light filling everything around it through the mountain range. It felt as if the sun had spilled itself over the whole sky and swallowed it. Fiery reddish-burgundy flashes rampaged around. It was incredibly beautiful. I’d never seen anything like it. A few minutes after that sun had appeared, another sun began to swim up from behind the mountain tops, showing itself without haste, bit by bit until it had turned into a big yellow disc.

Morning had broken. All who had witnessed this miracle were bathed in light. Everyone stood in a state of bliss and smiled at each other. This was a dawn of new hope for each person. It was a new stage in life; to leave the past in the past and start living a new page of life.

Jonny and I waited for the group to start their journey back down the mountain. Left in solitude we did the sun salute ritual to the 4 points of the compass on the mountain’s gathering point.

Sun salute

This practice is done at dawn. First we face east since the sun rises from this direction. Palms pressed together at heart level, we breathe in and stretch our arms out to the sides. We look at the sun and breathe in his energy and on the inhalation bring our hands together. Repeat 4 times.

We then turn to face north, repeat the movements 4 times, then west, south and back to east where we conclude the movements.

At sunset everything except for the breathing is the same – we stretch our arms out on an exhalation and join them together on an inhalation. At sunset we breathe out everything that we’ve amassed during the day. We renew our energy and bid farewell to the old Sun so that tomorrow we can welcome a new day with the new experiences it will bring.

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After the Sun salute Jonny and I set down 4 scarab statuettes at each point of the compass. They were given to us as a present by Egyptian healer Osama, guardian of the ancient secrets of pharaohs on how to prepare rejuvenating oils, creams and healing teas, passed down to him by his ancestors. The scarabs were painted different colours, each symbolizing its direction or wind: green – east, blue – north, purple – west, brown – south. It is known that the ancient knowledge of Egypt, Mexico and other civilizations has a common root and the importance of number four can also been seen in Egyptian sources. We left the scarabs as an offering to this place and began our descent.

Week 2

The test showed two stripes. Clear laughter of heartfelt happiness rang out from my body. Jonny came into the bathroom and understood straight away. He lifted me up in his arms hugging me tightly. We laughed like children. We were those sun-filled children. We already knew about my pregnancy beforehand but were confirming it a second time for ourselves.

A true miracle has taken place. A divine plan. It’s almost unreal. I can’t quite believe it! Maybe I’m dreaming?! I don’t believe it…Have I really succeeded? Have we done it?! From now on I won’t be lonely, at least not for the next 9 months. Wherever I am, whatever place I’ll be going to, there’ll be another being with me; a friend in my belly.